There was a time, not long ago when I was almost paralyzed by the prospect of a blank screen or an unmarked piece of paper.
I had ideas screaming to be released from the prison of my imagination but I would freeze at the thought of taking that first step…how would I fill the blank space before me?
I was afraid…afraid to take that first step…afraid to start.
I struggled with the fear for nearly two years before finding the strength and confidence to take that first step to fill the blank screen, the unmarked piece of paper. Now, those ideas that struggled for freedom are finding their voice and I have taken that first step to make them reality.
Having taken that first important step, my ideas take shape and are in various stages of the creative process. The shorter pieces have been completed and are being posted on this blog. These completed works are major victories for me. Each one is a stepping stone toward my larger projects; a series of short science fiction stories and a series of alternate history/post-apocalyptic novels. I’m very passionate about these projects. They are full of unexpected surprises for me, taking on a life of their own as I write them
But now I find myself plagued by a new fear and though it’s not unexpected, it’s a fear nonetheless…
The fear of not finishing what I’ve started.
I know it’s an irrational fear. I keep working on my projects and posts, knowing I’ll complete them but the fear of not finishing still nags me.
I’ll bet that I’m not alone…that many of you cleared the hurdle of starting a project only to face the fear of not finishing what you started. Perhaps , like me, you’re experiencing that fear now. If so, I’d like to hear from you.
Let me know how you are coping or have coped with this kind of fear.
What strategies do you employ to drive it away and keep your creative process on track?
I invite you to share your thoughts.
Post a comment.
I’m sure your insights will not only help me but others as well.